I'm Debbie downering for now.... still time but as the clock ticks on it seems more likely i'm out.... rigs are all good, better than ever.
Just... stuff... right now. Not sure how to say, certainly not an excuse as he'd tell me GO!!! and HAVE FUN!!!!! But, my dad passed on Tuesday. Quite frankly, I hadn't spoken to or seen him in some years, I guess nearly a decade as I count back. I didn't say goodbye, and that's tough stuff. Affected me more than I guess I thought it would. Always told him I loved him very much, just that I needed the space; because, well, I just did.
I guess more than anything its the terrain + drive. Plenty of big creeks around here too.
Life sucks sometimes. I have 19 days ish to flip it all around and get in a better state of mind and KEEP GOING!!!
Either way - super glad to see peops excited and raring to go! If anything gets me there its you guys, and my Pops --- who worked TIRESLESSLY on real cars and trucks all his life, TIRELESSLY. COUNTLESS HOURS, some days 16+ a day I might not even see him before bed, it was tough, just sayin'. Heck, what am I saying, MANY DAYS were 16+. Just too many. And he was already long gone in the dark hours of the morning by the time I was on way to school. Same I guess for so many of us X'ers, parent(s) were passing strangers in the night.
He worked hard and got a kick in the ass for his troubles. Welcome to Earth. I have other plans for this place, just sayin'
Sorry for the random vent and sapper of spirits!!
